Running … running in the dark. The hostile environment scrapes at her tender skin, flesh exposed, bruised and bleeding. She stops, slumped against a ghost tree, pale and great – ghostly in the cold night air. Rivulets of cold liquid run; dripping from her fevered face then falling into the dark.

Surely her heart will stop; will expire from the stress and why did her throat close up, why could her lungs not take in enough oxygen?

“I can’t. I can’t run anymore.”

Helplessly her body slid down the rough bark of the ghost tree and slumped on the damp grass - she wept. Each sob convulsed her exhausted body and as the darkness moved in, the mist gently, lovingly, embraced her with warmth – the loving arms of understanding and peace.

Her eyes closed she lifted her face into the warm breathe that washed over her.

“Please, I can’t run anymore. Please…”

Silence 

From her own soft sound the whisper danced off into the night...

 “I am yours…”

As with most things it was only a matter of time. Her eyes were opened and all she could do was stare in wonder at the scene before her. The heavy drapes were pulled back and through the sheer lace left rippling in the breeze, a new landscape formed its shape. How could the truth be this all encompassing? It covers an existence beyond understanding. The rules had been set and engagement… a fore-gone-conclusion.

It can’t really be like this – her mind reasoning the whole time. To take another belief as ‘total’ would be ludicrous right about now; too much to do to allow the shock to take hold. One step at a time, just one thought at a time – sift through and work on the ones that are workable right now.

Ok, things as they stand…

1. The land scape is different – aesthetics only… right?
2. I have not at present changed internally (changing only according to my new surroundings – ‘truth/reality’ adjustment)
3. Change is good – one day at a time
4. There is no such thing as ‘try’ – there is only do or do not
5. There is no such thing as ‘fail’ – there is only do or do not
6. I think I can… I think I can… I think I can… I think… therefore I can 

Step one.

1. Search for evidence
2. Document evidence found
3. Assess reality factor within documented evidence
4. Statistics are an illusion – Do not use… they will be out of context no matter how you use them
5. Breathe in … Breathe out – keep this rotation working for a while
6. Don’t be afraid – this is called growing up – it’s all good regardless of how it feels right now
7. STAY! Do not run away. Don’t run away! STAY!
8. You can do this…

There are some things that are just NOT worth it – this is NOT one of them

He sits, sleepily in my circled arms

Purring tenaciously

What a day he’s had

What a day to be had

A friend

A friend beyond friends

His scent brings comfort

His warmth – peace

Beyond what we know and hope to know

Little things mean so much…

Today I’m chucking the BIGGEST tantrum EVER!!!!

Beware the wrath of the Roses...

...Oh yeah and  - have a really lovely day, ok? Cheers...