It would be easy to think, no matter where one is or who one is seen to be, that … ‘this is it’. Some would even be convinced that they’re too old or too young, too poor or too rich, the wrong colour, shape, type, in the wrong place at the wrong time, too short or too tall, too stupid or too smart, too right or too wrong… what ever it is, sometimes we’ve allowed ourselves to be convinced that it’s over. “This is as good as it gets”. Some how we just reach the point where the “fed up-ed-ness” happens, and we feel we just don’t – can’t reach the mark; the expectations we and we feel others, place upon us. Well….
Really, I don’t know. I don’t know why we think we need to live our lives to please others, but that doesn’t make it ‘not real’.
I understand there are some relationships where ones choose to discipline themselves in the art of submission, be it work, training, love…
But it’s the other I’m wondering about, the type of expectation that can cause us to feel less. Like for instance the student who can never live up to their parents need for their child to be the smartest. The wife or husband who can never quite get anything right – you know what I mean? Like the young beautiful child actor, singer, model, who feels as though they will never be anything more to anyone than something to look at or hear or enjoy. Sometimes we never… ever… quite make it… do we?
What do we really want? I wish I knew… really I do.
It’s New Year. Yep, it happened last year and here it is again - New Year!
I don’t want to make any New Year resolutions or promises to myself or anyone else this year. I don’t want to try and change into something more than I am or less than I am or what ever else lots of us say we’ll do but rarely follow through. No…
I think this year, I’ll just live… Don’t know about you, but that sounds like a lot of fun if it’s unencumbered with expectations. Yeah, chuck them away! Take that big heavy thing off, drop it and walk away. When we’re walking free, perhaps it will be easier to allow others to do the same. Perhaps it will be easier to forgive, easier to laugh, even easier to truly … Love.
Ohh well, we can always … hope …